It's amazing how things can turn around in a matter of a few days. If you had asked me last week how things were going at work, you'd have received a very philisophical answer about how things can only improve, and how this year has been a learning experience, and how I at least still have a job and all of that. After the past few days, I'm thinking that maybe things aren't so bad after all. Literally in the past 2 days I've made up for months of spinning my wheels. I feel like I'm back in the good old days of last year, when I would walk into work with the expectation, no, the determination to make something happen. I will make 2004 a good year. I will do better than breakeven. I will beat last year's total. It will be tough, but I am determined to do it.
For a long time I've felt like I've lost my edge. I used to have a very competitive spirit - I wanted to be the best in everything. Somewhere along the line I learned that I could do minimal work and still get by, and I got lazy. It's taken a while, but I'm starting to get back that edge. I'm starting to remember how good it feels to be the best again.
Oh, on a side note, Mark got married this weekend. The wedding was fun, albeit a little sparsely populated in the single woman department. No dancing for me. Still, a good time was had by all.